making an appearance...

So finally after a few weeks I'm making an appearance. I have no excuses. As you know I was struggling for a bit. But I've managed to begin to over come my insecurities. Quite frankly though I was tired of hearing myself ramble about my weight.

I feel like I've lost sight of why I began this journey. It wasn't to look good or to attempt a 5k or a triathlon...none of it. Its about my health. It was about not having to huff and puff just to go up the stairs and being able to stand for more then ten minutes at a time.

I have a long way to go. It is not only human nature but also scientific theory that when people make a change in their lives they will almost definitely relapse. I have relapsed in my eating habits. I'm completely aware of it and I know that I need to go back to the basics of eating fresh, non-processed foods.

We all have triggers. Part of recovering from relapse is being aware that certain things whether it be stress, anger or bad day at work, we will all have something that triggers negativity. For me its a combination of things. My husband is coming up on his next deployment. Just the thought of him having to go back into a war zone again evokes so much emotion that I feel like just walking away from the world and hiding under my bed.

If you've never been overweight you can't understand how much emotion each pound of weight carries. I can't say that enough. However, I feel like there comes a time where I CANT be a victim any longer. I'm not a victim of my weight anymore. I will not allow a lapse in judgment to hinder me from accomplishing my goal. At the end of the day the excuses have to stop. Behind the excuses we make conscientious choices to either nourish and take care of our bodies or continue on our path of destruction.

I believe in me and you. No one said this journey would be easy. Although at times it seems I want to quit, I will battle this til the end. Happy workouts to all!!