Lessons Learned

For some reason Monday is always such a lazy day for me. I don't work and I don't go to school anymore but the history of Monday's has always been the same for me. I guess the weekend gets comfortable for me and I am ambivalent of the coming changes on Monday. lol. Strange right?? lol

Anyway, today was a reaffirmation of everything I've been working hard for. We left to the store to buy some brown rice because it was on sale for like 50 cents a pound. Total score lol. I made a several huge mistakes before leaving to the store. Not only did I spend most of the day asleep in bed but I also didn't eat before I left the house. Not eating is the worst thing you can do before going to the store. I was starving and since I was starving, I wanted to eat right then and there. I'm always searching for a little bit of home when I'm hungry so naturally we went to this little Mexican food shack that I've been eyeing on my way to the gym for weeks. We went in and it I knew I wasn't going to make a healthy choice. I ordered a big torta (sandwich) and cheese fries. When the food arrived it was a complete disappointment. I pictured an awesome sandwich and some tasty, cheesy fries. It tasted nothing like what I had imagined.

I guess this is why I am a firm believer that people who eat junk food are truly addicted.  I remember having mouth-watering burgers at McDonald's and super succulent, fried french toast sticks at Sonic. However, now its just not the same. When I do eat the junk I'm always disappointed at how crappy it really tastes. I guess now that I avoid it, most of the time, my brain receptors don't crave it and THEY DEFINITELY DON'T NEED IT ANYMORE.

On top of the bad meal when I headed to the gym I felt like a sloth trying to sprint. I struggled through out the entire workout. I was tired and out of energy. I can't remember the last time I felt that way. I was a little angry with myself for allowing myself to make such a bad decision. But I have to learn to deal with the fact that I'm human and I make mistakes. No one is perfect all the time and seeking perfection will unfortunately lead to a lot of failure if you're not willing to accept who you are first.

Tomorrow is another day. The Buddhist saying says that "no matter how hard the past you can begin again."  I'm sure there will be other days where I have to start again but its all part of the journey. Happy Workouts!!