Breakthrough...

Its been a wonderful week! I feel like I'm finally seeing and making progress. I made it through the whole three day cleanse...well we got about 20 minutes left in this whole thing. lol.

Last time I blogged I spoke about my future fitness goals and wanting to start training for a Olympic triathlon. I found a running guide in my book and I've been contemplating starting it. I'll be honest running is something I have always hated. Its been the source of my fat complex all my life. If you can't run or don't run then it must be because you're fat. Not true, I know, but its always how I connected running to my life. 

Anyhow, today I said "I'm going to do it."  Although I do interval running throughout the week as part of my regular workouts, I have not stepped on a track in months. I have definitely not ever ran in the fresh air of Colorado. After dropping some stuff off to my husband at work, I decided that I'd stop at the track and just get this run out of the way. 

I had no expectations of what should happen or if I'd even be able to finish it. I thought eight laps, its not that much.  So I did a mini-stretch, turned on my headphones, and I started jogging.  The first lap seemed to go by quickly. Before I knew it I was saying to my self "ok three more and your done."

As I reached the end of my last lap my eyes started to well up with tears. Not because I was in pain or because I was angry, but because I had finally let that wall down. I completed what I felt like I'd never be doing. At least not this soon in my journey. TWO MILES! To the average runner its not at all a big deal, but to me it meant the world. VICTORY at last!

You know I just can't help but get emotional about it. I feel like I've made a break through emotionally and mentally. Although, I can't help but still be negative at times, I know that I'm going in the right direction with my life. It has been so dark for so long and now I can see tiny glimpses of light coming into the tunnel. I have been capable all along of succeeding but I just never believed in me. I can officially tell you that I BELIEVE IN ME! I hope that you all will also find that inner strength in yourselves to accomplish, or begin to accomplish, all your dreams. Until next time HAPPY WORKOUTS!!